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| Wednesday, June 21, 2006 |
It's been a long time since I vent my unhappiness through running. As usual, quarreled with him over S. Everytime when I witness him lighting up a ciggy, I knew he's feeling down. And it all started by me.
Being selfish is the word to describe myself. There's no win win situation in life. But the selfish me just want the best of both. While I can't bring myself to let go. The only way to ease his pain is to leave S perhaps. To stop him from thinking. How I wish my little other things do ease his pain. But it's gonna be a never.
Tell me what should I do?
It all started with a crush. And day by day, the love just grew. I can't bare to leave him too. Used to think that by leaving him, he will be happy in the long run. But the other half of me just want to see him smile, give him the best of everything. I just want to carry the responsibility of grooming him into a better someone. So that in the long run things will run smooth for him.
There's something I can find in S but not him. The I-will-be-there-for-you kind of feeling. Just one sad face in my msn nick kept him worry and called my hp just to know that I'm fine. This little things from him do touches my heart. He just know how to ease my worries with his outrageous thinking & words.
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